♡ 𝑳𝑖𝔏𝚈𝚆𝖔𝕽𝕃𝘿 4𝔼𝙑𝙴𝓡 ♡

❤ i am, of course, LILY ! and this is also, of course, my SITE! my world, my digital realm, my internet enclosure. i am a weird little insect scuttling around, scavaging rotten fruits & shiny things, gathering them here in my home. it's my place to be as deranged as i wish... for my entire life, i have never really felt as if i belonged anywhere; internet and otherwise, so i had to carve out something for ME. but you're welcome here too, i suppose...❤ this is a quiet place; i do not demand attention, i do not wish to be known by many- i see youtubers now often covering neocities sites, and they get hundreds of thousands of views. i watch these, and i think, "i could not bear to be seen like that." the audience is scary; the mass public of the internet represents, to me, something watchful, parasitic, and i do not want to engage with that. to advertise this site would be a detriment, it would take away it's personal sacrility, morph into something it doesn't want to be, some form of performance- even unconciously. i am not for the many. it scares me that everyone who sees this exists (probably?), is a real, functional person with passions and virtues and morals. do i wish to be percieved at all?
anyway. one day i shall become the new chairman of the CCP, and those who wronged me will soon learn of my wrath. am i being ironic? NO!